I have sat here staring at a blank screen for over half an hour now pondering the last 3 months of my life. It’s definitely amazing how one’s life can change so quickly and in the best way possible. To celebrate George’s 3 month birthday I wanted to share few thoughts about my journey as a new mom.
First things first, no one can ever prepare you for how much you will love your baby. I mean, they can try to put it into words and describe it but until you experience it, it’s hard to grasp. From the first few days with George, I finally understood what one of my friends told me when she said you love your children so much it hurts. Seriously, the little hands, the tiny toes, the first coos and morning smiles are all moments that make my heart ache with a happiness I have never known. This parent love is so overwhelming at times. I have only known George for 3 months but now cannot for the life of me remember my life without him.
With that being said, becoming a mom hasn’t always been challenge free. Nursing has been frustrating and the pure exhaustion I have felt some days have brought me to tears. On the hardest days, I am reminded that life is full of seasons and that with God’s grace I can handle anything for a short time. And time is something that seems to be all to fleeting when you have a baby. I have often looked at Chris and said, I wish I could just freeze time! The days that seem to go painfully slow are reminders to me to soak up each moment and make the most of this chapter in my life. I have a feeling it will be a fast one.
Becoming a mom has given me a new found appreciation for my parents and I now understand them a little more. All those times I thought they were being ridiculous and over protective I now get 100%. You do not realize how much your parents give up to raise you till you walk this path.
Finally, I have learned that time for yourself goes out the window when you become a mom. Some days it takes me till after lunch to brush my teeth. Other days I realize I’ve been in the same pj’s for 3 days straight!:/ Oh and if I have to go somewhere, I have learned I might as well start 2 hours in advance getting ready because there will almost all the time be that hungry cry fest or that moment I’m walking out the door and he decides now is the perfect time to pee on mommy. 🙂 When I fall into bed at night, I have often wondered what I got accomplished besides wiping tears, changing diapers and the around the clock feedings. In those moments, I have decided that #momlife isn’t always glamorous but I’m convinced now it’s the most beautiful.